sexinthesticksandstuff

I’ve been slacking on posts this week. Mostly because I’ve been busy with work and classes, but also because I’ve felt stuck and conflicted about what to post next.

I keep holding back from writing about my past relationships. I’m not sure what’s blocking me, but I know there’s probably some healing in getting it all out on “paper.”

But for today, I plan to ponder crushes.

I honestly can’t remember a time when I didn’t have a crush. Like, what do people even spend their free time thinking about?

I love having a crush. Smiling when I hear from them. That fuzzy feeling in my chest. The novelty of someone new. Daydreaming about them and looking forward to the next time I’ll see them.

There’s something comforting about having a place for my thoughts to wander, a little escape from the other aspects of life. Though sometimes I wonder if it’s really an escape or just a way to avoid other areas of my life.

I also wonder what I could have done with all the time I’ve spent thinking about my crushes. What else could I have poured that energy into?

During my recent break from dating, I didn’t have anyone to crush on, so I found my thoughts drifting back to my past situationships.